Puckurt Week: Day 4 - First “I love You”
Seeing each other after high school it’s not planned because Kurt is in New York and the last place where he expected to see Noah Puckerman again it’s NYU.
Kurt is looking for a roommate, putting up flyers around campuses hoping he won’t run into a psychopath, when he quiet literally crushes into Puck. The flyers are spreading everywhere and Kurt is lying on the floor before Puck’s face come into focus. In his mind he’s yelling “YOU!” but what actually happens is that Puck helps him up and tries to gather all the multicolored flyers all the while apologizing and that’s even more surprising that meeting him in New York.
“What are you doing, man?” Puck asks, handing a few of the flyers back to Kurt.
“I was looking for a roommate,” he pauses and considers the polite way to ask before simply blurting out, “What are you doing in New York?”
“Thought I’d be the aging pool cleaning guy, didn’t you?” There’s no trace of anger or resignation in Puck’s voice like he doesn’t care one way or another what Kurt thinks of him.
What happens next is in Kurt’s list of “Things That Will Never Happen to Me” right after, “having hot sex with Taylor Lautner.” He figures that living with Puck is better than trying his luck with a stranger so he opens his mouth and says, “Where are you staying?”
Puck looks at him with a frown. “Huh, on Campus?”
And Kurt will forever thank his lucky star for having the guts to ask, “Come live with me?” because he could have spent the rest of his life having walked away from his true love.
It’s raining when they kiss the first time. They’re in their sophomore year and living together ever since they ran into each other and Puck is working in a bar that lets him play every once in a while and Kurt is pretty much his only fan.
They’re running back home because they both forgot their umbrella and Kurt keeps slipping because Converses aren’t the best shoes for slippery sidewalks and Puck keeps laughing at him but catching him all the same every time.
When they get to their condo they’re soaking wet and Kurt realizes he doesn’t have his keys and neither does Puck and Kurt swears he has no idea why he’s laughing and can‘t seem to stop.
“We can buzz Mrs. Merryweather, she loves you.”
Kurt shakes his head. “She’s not home this week, remember? We’re supposed to water her plants and feed Romeo.”
Puck grins. “Then use her keys.”
A minute later they’re running up the stairs, goose bumps and shivering. Kurt opens the door and almost falls flat on his face when his shoes slip over the tiles but Puck catches him and closes the door with his foot.
“You should never wear those shoes when I’m not around,” Puck jokes.
Kurt laughs and notices that Puck is not letting him go. He’s wet and cold and longing for the big shower in their apartment but right now, the part of him that always notices how Puck looks first thing in the morning and when he’s eating his waffles or that relaxes whenever Puck falls asleep next to him on the couch, is keeping him there, in Puck’s arms.
Puck’s hands slide down until they’re resting on Kurt’s hips and he turns Kurt around slowly, one hand coming up to comb back the wet locks that are sticking to Kurt’s forehead.
Kurt can’t remember the last time anyone has looked at him like that, touched him like that, wonders if there has ever been anyone who did it because this feels like nothing he has ever felt before. He could ask Puck why he’s looking at him like that, but Kurt already knows the answer. And then Puck leans forward and Kurt could swear time is stopping and when their lips touch, it starts again, spinning, giving him vertigos. He can smell cat food and withering plants and it makes him smile and bring Puck closer.
The first to say ‘I love you’ is Kurt. It’s new for Kurt because the one time he had a boyfriend before Puck, he was so scared of reading everything wrong that he couldn’t find in himself to admit it first. It’s new for Puck because he has always said it first and never heard it back and he has known he loves Kurt for so long that loving Kurt is like an arm or a hand, something that’s part of him and he couldn’t imagine himself without it.
So when Kurt says it first he’s speechless and just sits there for a while staring at Kurt as if waiting for him to take back what he said. But Kurt knows Puck, knows him better than anyone else, so he doesn’t push and doesn’t get angry, he just smiles and says it again and then Puck finally finds the voice to say it back and it’s perfect.